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7th-Nov-2002 04:35 pm
okay lets see. life sux ? yeah. i dont know where to start. im so glad to have this journal + awesume lj friends to support me ryte now. its not a good point in my life and its wen i need my journal the most to express my feelingz bc no1 else rlly listens.
-well let me start you off wit wut i did today. i woke up at 7 took a shower and straightend my hair <
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okay lets see. <b>life sux</b> ? yeah. i dont know where to start. im so glad to have this journal + <b>awesume lj friends to support me ryte now</b>. its not a good point in my life and its wen i need my journal the most to express my feelingz bc no1 else rlly listens.
-well let me start you off wit wut i did today. i woke up at 7 took a shower and straightend my hair <<it lookz wiked good. well skool suked like usual. dur. i got out and i hadda big fight wit my moms boyfriend. ya hes the biggest dikhead in this fuk'n werld and im neva gunna put my kids thru this. i think 99% of children that have stepdads, or if thea mom has a bf hates them. i mean does neone out thea have a stepdad who tries to act like thea father ? ::raises hand:: i do. and it sux. we got ina fight bc i gave jamie a ride home, and i waz like can i drive so i can get ready for my drivers test. ((i waz suppose to take 10 years ago lol)) and he waz bitch'n at me for no reason then he fukin stops on the side of the road and says <b>get out and walk</b>. so i go jamie wanna get the fuk out bc this guy has sum serious issues he needs to take care of. so she sed ya so we open the door and the pyscho path speeds foward..im liek um heh ok fukin asshole ? i didnt shut the door so the whole ride home the door waz open i waz screm'n HELP ! haha i wanted to get outta thea he waz out of control its not fair i have to live wit him i miss my dad<3 so much hes not even close to bein that pyscho i dunno y my mom left my dad and went wit this guy bc my dad is so much betta..hes not fat...hes not OLD..hes not crazy and he respects me..and then my momz bf doesnt mind his own business bosses me around..swears at me ..my own dad doesnt even do that i dont get life but wuteva. and i have issues wit live'n hea i wanna go bak home and visit my friends, and my mom wont let me ? ha ok fuk that lady im goin i dont care im live'n hea wit a bunch of asshole hicks who dont fukin do shit. i hate everyone and i just want my old life bak i have to wait another fukin 6 months to see my dad. my family. matt. my friends. my whole life is bak thea and noone understands. er im so heated..i cant stand this shit nemore. then i have my "love life" ya thats fuked up too. fuk'n i never talk to matt nemore and im in love with him, i dunno if i shud just ferget bout him or wut er ppl left comments b4 but i unno my heart is say'n stay wit him dont give up and then my mind is sayin fuk him go wit another guy. er. i hate love it sux. let me tell ya never get attached to sumone till ur 20 ((sed by sarah. frm josh lol.)) so fuk'n true tho. i agree wit her n josh tho. u shud live ur life have fun meet different ppl. dont get attached im warn'n ya it can suk bigg time. wuteva i been cry'n all fuk'n day i dont kno how much more i can take. i dont need all this shit in my life im onli 16 ! lol er i never knew life cud sink this low..frm bein like the happiest gurl alive wit everything she ever wanted to sink'n down to be depressed wit no friends hea and away frm everyone... last nite i cudnt like breathe theas sumthing seriously wrong wit me i think its the weather its so dry hea and it sux fukin ass. but ya no doctor hea can figure out wuts wrong er PPL SUK HEA THEY CAN ALL DIE FOR ALL I CARE FUK'N ASSHOLES I BEEN SO SNAPPY LATELY THEA IS SUMTHING WRONG im fukin out one.

<marquee>happy bday dalyn sorry im not thea. im stuk hea my life sux. well <3 u hunn 477</marquee>

<b>i just want to say thanks to my friends that have supported me for the last 7 months i seriuosly know i have the greatest friends in this fukin werld. and no matter wut we will stick together. its so good to have friends like you and thanx for deal'n wit this bullshit things will b bak to normal in 6 months promise..:tear:</b>
Comments 
7th-Nov-2002 07:36 pm (UTC)
Hey Krys!<3*`
I wish I could send you money sOo you can go see all your friends.. + especially Matt! You seem sOo lonely without them! I hope everything will be okay.. + look on the bright side, it's only 6 more months!?
Ehh.. wait nevermind, that kinda still is a really long time, but if you think of it.. it's already November + May really isn't that far away..!
I hope everything gets resolved with you and Matt.. sOo when you go in May you'll be back together!! Ahh.. mad cute!
Does your mom know how you feel about her boyfriend?? If she doesn't.. you should tell her sOo she knows how you feel about him!

Well I'm gonna go.. I talk too much!

<3 You !
Candy -*
7th-Nov-2002 07:54 pm (UTC) - :)
CaNdY!<3*
Heyy hunnie thanks so much for the comment ! it means a lot to me lol =) well ya matt does mean a lot to me, i been atached to him for a long ass time..;[ but hopefullie everything will werk out ! and hopefullie the next 6 months will go by fast. my 2 best friends are come'n hea in dec :D thank God bc if they werent i'd die. ha. well i tell my mom all the time i cant stand her bf and she yells at him and most of the time she kicks him out for a while but he alwayz comes bak no matta wut he wont get off my moms ass. i cant stand the guy hes mad gay but wuteva i'll b 18 in less then 2 years so adios to that faq. ha. well i'll ttul ! thanks for the comment once again :D<3

love always KrystaL
143 xox mwah !
7th-Nov-2002 07:42 pm (UTC) - Helmet
What up dude :) Things will be back to normal soon so it's all good. Just get a job like ya said & keep yourself doin' stuff for 6 months & you'll be straaaight, Heh.

Purple cow forever :P
7th-Nov-2002 07:56 pm (UTC) - Re: Helmet
hey weeners<3
lol thanks for the comment dorkface. and thank god things will be bak to normal in less then a yEaR! lol hicks piss me off tho >=( but wuteva haha miss you !
<33 krys

xox 143 bfflddup mwahhhh PuRplE CoWz FaHlIfE!! <<Aww!
7th-Nov-2002 08:12 pm (UTC) - Hey Hunnieee
Hey hunnie! Im commentin! i jus read that whole thing!Hunnie cheer up.. Me and You are soo much alike.. its scary.. i know exsactly wat ur sayin wit the whole ur moms Bf thing.. Sept. my mom got re-married.. errrrrr.. i hate my step dad hes a fuck.. lol hes fat.. Phyco.. and all that shit u said about ur Moms bf.. he swears at me.. tells me wat to do.. hes jus a dick.. and i always yeLL and shit rite back.. and tell him to stfu hes not my dad.. and My mom always listens to him and goes on his side.. does ur mom do that? i mean once in a while.. she will go on mine,, but i dont Know! HuNnIE. i already said u must be goinnn crazii! so crazii.. cuz i know you Love Matthew! U have Liked him longer then i liked matt and that is a madd Long time.. Is he seein some1 else rite now? i mean cuz if he is.. u should def. see some1 else for now.. and jus see wat happens.. wen u get ur ass back here!! Yeah know? Like try not to worry about it rite.. now! Try and Have fun.. Just think how good it will be wen ur back here!! lol and me and u can go on our Lil TriPs Lol we dont need Lisa to have fun! lol.. we can sing our songs! lol have all our fun times again
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Hey hunnie! Im commentin! i jus read that whole thing!Hunnie cheer up.. Me and You are soo much alike.. its scary.. i know exsactly wat ur sayin wit the whole ur moms Bf thing.. Sept. my mom got re-married.. errrrrr.. i hate my step dad hes a fuck.. lol hes fat.. Phyco.. and all that shit u said about ur Moms bf.. he swears at me.. tells me wat to do.. hes jus a dick.. and i always yeLL and shit rite back.. and tell him to stfu hes not my dad.. and My mom always listens to him and goes on his side.. does ur mom do that? i mean once in a while.. she will go on mine,, but i dont Know! HuNnIE. i already said u must be goinnn crazii! so crazii.. cuz i know you Love Matthew! U have Liked him longer then i liked matt and that is a madd Long time.. Is he seein some1 else rite now? i mean cuz if he is.. u should def. see some1 else for now.. and jus see wat happens.. wen u get ur ass back here!! Yeah know? Like try not to worry about it rite.. now! Try and Have fun.. Just think how good it will be wen ur back here!! lol and me and u can go on our Lil TriPs Lol we dont need Lisa to have fun! lol.. we can sing our songs! lol have all our fun times again<aw memories :[ ur a great friend and i miss u Like crazii.. Babe Keep ur head up! You are handleing shit soo well.. And dude if u wanna cryyyy! cry! lol im so emotional and u know it! lol and if shit dont work out wit u and matt.. i will smack that kid.. i will call him again.. he will be Like ah im in the shower.. Lol like las time! Hahaha too funny.. im like hi u dont know me LOL.. WoAh! I MiSs YOU! i cant wait till u come back here.. and i am always here for you.. so i hope u know u can come to me with all ur problems! im gunna go to bed! cuz im tired and sick! :[ im gunna go talk to u for a lil bit tho! LyLaS! 143..bFfLdDuP! xoxoxoxo! MiSs YoU
<3 aLways JeNna

<marquee> I Love Matthew JaSoN+yOu Love Matthew Scott </marquee>
7th-Nov-2002 08:26 pm (UTC)
alrite.. im pissed cuz i didnt fit the whole thing Lol..thea is the rest

i mean cuz if he is.. u should def. see some1 else for now.. and jus see wat happens.. wen u get ur ass back here!! Yeah know? Like try not to worry about it rite.. now! Try and Have fun.. Just think how good it will be wen ur back here!! lol and me and u can go on our Lil TriPs Lol we dont need Lisa to have fun! lol.. we can sing our songs! lol have all our fun times again
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alrite.. im pissed cuz i didnt fit the whole thing Lol..thea is the rest

i mean cuz if he is.. u should def. see some1 else for now.. and jus see wat happens.. wen u get ur ass back here!! Yeah know? Like try not to worry about it rite.. now! Try and Have fun.. Just think how good it will be wen ur back here!! lol and me and u can go on our Lil TriPs Lol we dont need Lisa to have fun! lol.. we can sing our songs! lol have all our fun times again<aw memories :[ ur a great friend and i miss u Like crazii.. Babe Keep ur head up! You are handleing shit soo well.. And dude if u wanna cryyyy! cry! lol im so emotional and u know it! lol and if shit dont work out wit u and matt.. i will smack that kid.. i will call him again.. he will be Like ah im in the shower.. Lol like las time! Hahaha too funny.. im like hi u dont know me LOL.. WoAh! I MiSs YOU! i cant wait till u come back here.. and i am always here for you.. so i hope u know u can come to me with all ur problems! im gunna go to bed! cuz im tired and sick! :[ im gunna go talk to u for a lil bit tho! LyLaS! 143..bFfLdDuP! xoxoxoxo! MiSs YoU
<3 aLways JeNna

<marquee> I Love Matthew JaSoN+yOu Love Matthew Scott </marquee>
7th-Nov-2002 08:28 pm (UTC)
have all our fun times again
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have all our fun times again<aw memories :[ ur a great friend and i miss u Like crazii.. Babe Keep ur head up! You are handleing shit soo well.. And dude if u wanna cryyyy! cry! lol im so emotional and u know it! lol and if shit dont work out wit u and matt.. i will smack that kid.. i will call him again.. he will be Like ah im in the shower.. Lol like las time! Hahaha too funny.. im like hi u dont know me LOL.. WoAh! I MiSs YOU! i cant wait till u come back here.. and i am always here for you.. so i hope u know u can come to me with all ur problems! im gunna go to bed! cuz im tired and sick! :[ im gunna go talk to u for a lil bit tho! LyLaS! 143..bFfLdDuP! xoxoxoxo! MiSs YoU
<3 aLways JeNna
<marquee> I Love Matthew JaSoN+yOu Love Matthew Scott </marquee>
7th-Nov-2002 08:29 pm (UTC)
WOAH FUCK THIS! lol i tried like 7 times.. oh well.. iwill jus show u ! Byeee<3
7th-Nov-2002 08:40 pm (UTC)
Jenna!<3*
that sux the whole thing didnt fit..but its aight. u still wrote a lot ! :D well first off my mom does go on his side too like it all depends but sumtimes she goes on his side and it isnt fair. lol i cant wait till im *18* im outa hea ! well hopefullie things will werk out w/me n matt. i dont think hes see'n neone ryte now. he waz see'n christine but the kid is neva online and God onli knos wut hes been doin since he got his license. lol. but its all good bc wen i get bak i am gunna gett him i've liked him for the longest time and u kno that. ur the onli one that knos how long i've liked him ! :P lol. and we can def go on lil trips wit out lisa ! i'll b drive'n too so it'll b all good. i'll b bak by the time ur 16 geez haha. u n matt will b goin out for a year ! wowie thats long. haha. but it'll go by..i hope. we gatta keep in touch kindergraden buddy ! :D hehe. too cute. ah i miss you !! :( come visit me rofl. ah ! def chill'n wen i get bak :D im outtie ima go comment on ur journ :D thanks for the comment. !
<3 alwayz KrystAL

*lylas bfflddup xoxox mwah miss you like crazyy!!!*

I <3 MatThew ScOtt
You <3 MatThew JasOn !
8th-Nov-2002 01:18 pm (UTC) - i spend days *n* nights;in my bedroom

;hey ma;

;I added you as you can see!

;I*m sorry about your life;I*m sure things will get better -crosses fingers-If you need someone to vent on;i can be your shoulder to bitch on ;D

;Much Love <3
*love*Brandy.
8th-Nov-2002 07:59 pm (UTC) - Re: i spend days *n* nights;in my bedroom
heyy hunni ! aw lol ok i'll bitch to u ! <3 hopefulli shit gets betta. im outtie

Thanks for the comment

<33 Krystal<33
8th-Nov-2002 02:18 pm (UTC)
OMG! fuck you mom's boyfriend! don't u hate that? i used to have a step-dad but my mom dumped his ass! haha and i really hope everything w/ your BF works out!!
<3Ashley!!
8th-Nov-2002 08:03 pm (UTC)
heyy babeh! ya stepdad's are the werst =( hopefullie shit werks out wit me n matt.. hes change'n tho. well im outtie <3
<33 krystal
143 !
8th-Nov-2002 05:09 pm (UTC)
Krystal@!*<3

i can relate to u so much on this.. my papi was da best to me no matter how many times i fucced up on my life he understands people make mistakes on da otherhand da rest of my family frowned upon me, i live wit my stepdad now and he doesnt like me after i objected to my mom marryin him.. and its jus been hectic after dat =\
i always wanna leave here but i jus dont wanna leave my sister liz behind.. but anyhoo.. hope u figure this out.. why wont ur mom let u leave if it sucks so much there (my moms the same way and she finds me annoyin even).. -dont get it- oh wells

<333333 * Marci`
8th-Nov-2002 08:06 pm (UTC)
marci ! hey hun well im so sorry ! it sux have'n a step dad it rlly does i hpoe things get betta for u ! and ya my dads the same way !! errr and my dad lives 3000 miles away !~ er i hate this shit but neways..i hope shit werks out !! much love<3

<3 krystal <3
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